Self immolation

We don't realize that we are, deep down, the lane of self immolation. We inculcate deep seated beliefs, which subconsciously triggers us into actions.  We may diet, yet remain unable to control our hunger. Why are we contradicting the disciplines that mean so much to us?
A re-look into our soul will answer that the sub-conscious actions are from the beliefs we have cultivated through pains. We agree to lose what we had always valued. This unheard statement, runs in our mind with extreme surreptitiousness. Resulting, failure of every attempt to regain the turf.
Here's what awakened me from the dead voices in my head "A pact with yourself". I find light around me and the words that I so much wanted. Somehow, I see things working out now! This new found belief add my wings back, that I have longed to see :)